I know it´s been a while. A long while. I haven’t needed… I haven’t wanted to write this stuff down, but I don’t want to say it out loud either. The thing is that I´m not a talker and I hate it. It hurts. The pain is slowly dying on the inside, I`m too weak. So I keep it silent. Just me… alone.
sometimes a part of me just wanna lose it all, and then I think of Anthony. I`m almost all that he has left, he is everything that I have. So I need to find a balance.